Moving On (A Monologue about overcoming one's past)

So it all started a long long time ago. I was really young and thats when it started, the headaches and the pain... but those werent the worst... the worst was the Paranoia. I had this nagging thought in the back of my head that everyone in my life was lying to me. They hate you, the voice said. It took me a long time to realize that the voices in my head, were my own. We didnt trust anyone. Any relationship I was in, It felt as though they were lying... cheating... using me. *Attitude brightens a bit*  But now, now I know that I've found the one. The one person who not only helped me through this darkness, but also through all my paranoia. I walked around today and i didnt hear a single word of negativity. It's almost like I've had this spell cast on me and now I'm free. Free from all the fear that the people I love, and the people that say that they love me, actually feel that way. I-I'm not scared. *Fighting back tears* I'm so... Happy. That I'm finally free to live a life where I don't have to question anyone, and it's all because of this one person. I just wish I could say "Thank You" in person. Soon *Tears start to stream down face silently whispers* Thank you.

Kisses (A Monologue about Love and Rain)

I just love being in the rain, don't you? I mean think about all the greatness it brings... Life, Joy, Renewal, Love. Oh yes, Love. I have always dreamed that one day i'll get a good kiss in the rain. Not a peck on the cheek or a quick little kiss on the lips, but a good hard kiss... like... in the Notebook. The iconic romance kiss, arms wrapped around each other, rain pouring down on us, oh wouldn't it be wonderful. But I guess that's just me, I am a HOPELESS romantic. I would even love to sit on the love seat on my back porch snuggling up to him and drinking hot cocoa, all while watching the rain. And then to look into his eyes, and lean my head down and plant a nice kiss on his lips. *long dreamy sigh* How wonderful it would be. I just think the rain is SOOO romantic. One day, I will get that Notebook kiss...

Breathless (A love Monologue)

With out you, I-I don't think I go very far. Not a day goes by that I don't think about you, that I don't... that I don't miss you. I wish i could just hold you in my hold you in my arms, kiss you and tell you that I love you and that everything will be alright. Without you, the world feels cold and lonely, I feel like I'm living in a world where anything and everything WILL go bad. *Looks into his eyes* I love you, Zeta. You're like... my Oxygen, without you, what am I? Lifeless *grabs ZETA's hands*.  I've never felt this way about anyone, I'm normally a strong and independant person, I don't NEED anyone, but you. You come along and I fall, I practically can't breathe without you. I just... I love you so much. And these past few months have been the best. And, I can't wait for the months to come. I can't wait for more happy memories, with you. I do truly love you. Leans in and lightly kisses ZETA, then pulls back and looks deeply into his eyes with a smile on his face.


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Headaches (A monologue about MPD)

A teenage boy (or girl) sitting at a desk writing in his (or her) journal while speaking aloud, Obvious distress and lack of sleep visible on face, a distant look in the eyes.
"T-they're locked away. And because of it... the headaches are around. They want to get out so, so bad. But, I can't let them, so I sleep, or try to at least, but I can't. I close my eyes and I can hear them, I see them. They always tell me that we used to be friends. I still know their names... Of course I do, they were... they ARE, part of me. Erick, Daniel, Zach, Rex, Emilee, Jeremiah, Spike, Mae, Mavrik... All... apart of me... but... different. I didn't like all the drama they brought,  so I locked them up, and now, things are better. The only problem is the headaches, they're excrutiating, I sometimes can't see straight because of it, and I get these horrible mood swings. But it passes, I just have to let one of them out, only for a short while. I put them back in, and all is ok.

The starting of a Scene (Not finished)

-Characters-
Jack Isaacs - An eighteen year old homosexual boy who lives with his boyfriend ZETA,
Zeta Isaacs- A fifteen year old boy that has recently allowed his boyfriend, JACK, to move in with him
-Setting-
We find these two lovers in Jack's new bedroom, Jack and Zeta have been working on unpacking and making Jack's room his own,
Jack- sighs Babe, I have to tell you something, Zeta looks at Jack with a concerned but curious face, I just wanted to say, thank you for all you're doing for me. You're the best boyfriend in the world Jack leans in and plants a small kiss on Zeta's lips
Zeta- Pulls out from the kiss and smiles at Jack I love you, babe. That's why I'm willing to do this for you. You mean the world to me, and I want you to be happy. Zeta smiles again and kisses Jack
Jack- kisses Zeta back but at the same time pulls a present out from behind him. Here babe, this, is a gift for you. Zeta takes the gift with a happy yet confused smile on his face. Nothing to be worried about, I think you'll like it.
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_________ This isnt the whole scene, I'll post more when my inspiration return_____ thanks for reading - Jack

"A whole new world, a wonderous place i never knew" (from Disney's Aladdin)
- I'm moving in a couple of weeks (Fifteen days to be exact) and i'm excited and scared. I mean I get to live with him, which makes me happy, but at the same time i'm scared that things might change for the negative a lot. but i guess its fine because I trust him, and i love him, so... Things will be great. They'll only change for the better, i know it. So, it IS like experiencing a whole new world, one where im with him. And that IS a world that i have never known. I'm so excited ^_^'-

" packed a cooler and a change of clothes,Let's jump in, see how far it goes, You got my heart and your daddy's boat,We've got all night to make it float,We could sit on the shore, We could just be friends,Or we could jump in,The whole world could change in a minute,Just one kiss could stop it spinning,We could think it through,But I don't want to, if you don't want to" (Want To - Sugarland, Enjoy The Ride)

Some Thoughts

-"How I wish, how I wish you were here We're just two lost souls Swimming in a fish bowl Year after year Running over the same old ground What have we found? The same old fears Wish you were here" (Pink Floyd, Wish You Were Here)-

I do wish you were here, or that i was there. I think i wouldnt be so sad then. If i could just hold you in my arms... even for a second, i'd be happy. I love you, i hope you know that. And even though we act more like best friends than a couple, it's ok, because that's good too, Right?. To be honest.... i hope that my moving in doesnt put a strain on our relationship, because often times that does happen, and i dont want it to happen to us. I love you, and i'd do anything for you.

"I'd climb right up to the sky,I'd take down the stars,Just to be in your arms, baby,I'd go and capture the moon,That's what I would do,Just to hear you say that you love me" (Faith Hill, Just To Hear You Say That You Love Me)

Love Poem For Zeta (a compilitation of lyrics by Shania Twain)

In your arms, I can still feel the way you want me when you hold me,
I do swear, that I'll always be there I'd give anything, and everything and i will care
I'm not always stong and sometimes I'm even wrong
It's gonna be alright, I wont leave you lonely tonight,
This Could be it, I think I'm in love,
Oh, thank you baby for lovin' me like you do
But listen to my heart,
You are the moonlight I am the stars
I'd give my last breath, from this moment on
....
I love you Zeta <3

Wedding Proposal Monologue for my Boyfriend

Characters: Jack- A homosexual boy about the age of twentyone, A bright, happy boy with black hair, and brown eyes.
Zeta- A boy three years younger than JACK, about the age of nineteen. He's an adorable young man, with blue-grey eyes and a bright smile. the boyfriend of Jack.
Setting: A bedroom in an apartment, White walls, posters, and a Kind sized bed, a desk at the opposite end of the room where JACK is sitting in an office chair with his boyfriend ZETA on his lap, Both are full from the meal that prepared specially for ZETA that morning, and again for Lunch, A fresh bouquet of Black roses and Queen of The Night Tulips rests on the desk next to the computer. The sun is low in the sky showing early eveing late afternoon. A window is open to let in a light breeze.

Jack: Zeta... I need to tell you something. (Zeta gets off Jack, Jack stand up as Zeta sits back on the chair Jack looks Zeta in the eyes) Zeta... We've been dating for.... about.... four years now. And they have been the most amazing four years of my life. With a great boyfriend, the best I could ever ask for. (Pauses and lightly kisses Zeta's lips) I think though... That... I want to take it to the next level. Zeta, I have loved you non stop for the past four years, and I have been there to protect you, to hold you when you needed it. Zeta, I want you to be happy and safe. I want to hold you in my arms every day and whisper sweet words in your ear. I want to bring you a bouquet of long stem red roses and a box of chocolate every time I come home from work. I want to be there to dry your tears when you cry, to hear your laugh when you're happy. To hold your hand and be there in your time of need. I love you, Zeta, I've never felt more in love with a person before in my entire life. I want to wake each morning next to you, and go to sleep holding you each night. I will vow to be yours and yours only, in front of all our family and friends. (Jack gets down on one knee never breaking eye contact with Zeta). Zeta Draco Isaacs I vow right here and now that if you say yes to the following question that i will devote my entire life to you, I ask you here, right now, in our apartment that we have shared for the past year, with this darned late afternoon sun hitting us, Zeta, will you marry me? (He asks as he pulls out a silver ring that has tiny little moons on it. Zeta, be the moon to my sun, the lyrics to play, the song to tune. Be mine forever. Marry me Zeta and i swear i will make you the happiest man in all the universes. I swear it.