So, I just got done watching one of my all time favourite shows, Grey's Anatomy. The episode was titled, "Do You Know Who You Are?" (Funny how that's the name of this segment right?)
It made me realize something that I've known and have thought about a few times. One person, one event, one tiny little thing, can change everything.
A couple of years ago, I was a wreck, it was after my Ex, Zeta, and I broke up. From that breakup I was thrown into this dark dark place.
I slept around, I drank (a lot) and I even got into drug use. (I'm clean now)
There are some days when I look at my current boyfriend and I wonder how different things would have been , had I not made the mistake of cheating on Zeta.
Have I gotten over the past, and all its dark corners? Not entirely, I do still think him from time to time, i'll admit. I wonder if things would have been different. If he and I would still be together, or if we'd at least talk still.
Those thoughts, however, are things that I'm constantly shoving into the back of my head, where I can no longer hear them.
Why?
Because if things hadn't changed, if Zeta and I were still together, I would probably still be the immature child I was when he and I were dating.
I"m not completely matured, i'm not this adult that can't joke around, or be overly optimistic about things. However, there are things that I no longer do, for example, I don't stick in the future, I live in the now.
I budget my money instead of spending all of it on someone, I have savings planned, and certain budgets set. I might not have gotten over the fact that my older brother molested me for a crud ton of years of my life.
BUT, Since I don't need to think about the what if's? What would life be like? Who WOULD I be?
I can enjoy today, I can say that my life (For the most part) is going great. I"m happy. But most importantly, I know who I am.
I am Jack Bastion, and there is not a thing anyone, or anything in this world or others, could do to change that....
Reader I end with this simple question.
Do you know who you are?
It made me realize something that I've known and have thought about a few times. One person, one event, one tiny little thing, can change everything.
A couple of years ago, I was a wreck, it was after my Ex, Zeta, and I broke up. From that breakup I was thrown into this dark dark place.
I slept around, I drank (a lot) and I even got into drug use. (I'm clean now)
There are some days when I look at my current boyfriend and I wonder how different things would have been , had I not made the mistake of cheating on Zeta.
Have I gotten over the past, and all its dark corners? Not entirely, I do still think him from time to time, i'll admit. I wonder if things would have been different. If he and I would still be together, or if we'd at least talk still.
Those thoughts, however, are things that I'm constantly shoving into the back of my head, where I can no longer hear them.
Why?
Because if things hadn't changed, if Zeta and I were still together, I would probably still be the immature child I was when he and I were dating.
I"m not completely matured, i'm not this adult that can't joke around, or be overly optimistic about things. However, there are things that I no longer do, for example, I don't stick in the future, I live in the now.
I budget my money instead of spending all of it on someone, I have savings planned, and certain budgets set. I might not have gotten over the fact that my older brother molested me for a crud ton of years of my life.
BUT, Since I don't need to think about the what if's? What would life be like? Who WOULD I be?
I can enjoy today, I can say that my life (For the most part) is going great. I"m happy. But most importantly, I know who I am.
I am Jack Bastion, and there is not a thing anyone, or anything in this world or others, could do to change that....
Reader I end with this simple question.
Do you know who you are?
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